soo.... went to school today... nervous... had a maths exam you see.... maths exam finished after a torturing 1 Hour but i think it went well.... Day went by normally.. had fun with my m8s.... had a laugh in the rain...

A funerla car went by with a coffin in it.... a stab of worry as my mind turned once again as it had for the whole week to my Granny...

she was admitted to hospital that previous saturday extremly weak and mal nurished... this was the secound time in a couple of months... she went the first time with a heart attack but she pulled through, this was in Ireland so when she went into hospital the first time we went to see her, course my dad told me it was to go shopping and see my horse...... he never would tell me when my Granny was sick... he knew i was very close even when we live in the Isle of Man.... always contacted her....

i was the only one who would contact her.... i know this sounds big headed but she told everyone and anyone even to me she thought the world of me... but it was the other way round .. I thought the whole world and universe about her

She ended up with Alzheimers losed her memory completely... she even forgot who my dad was, her actuall son!

But she still remebered me...!!

it was amazing.. out of all my other cousins and uncles who still live in Ireland she remebered me, 'Her girl' as she alsways called me and 'Blue eyed girl'...

she looked so week that time i saw her in the hospital... she wouldnt even talk to my dad.. only me and it amazed the nurses and everyone else but that just prooves that the bond was soo stron

At least she didnt suffer,... i know that as Alzheimers just effect the people around the person and not the actually person in a painful way... im glad she went peacefully...

i just wished i was there to say my last goodbyes! :'(

I love you Granny!! For know and for always and i will make you even more proud of me... i wish you were here to see me get my GCSE grades... i just wish you were her!!

R.I.P Granny and be happy now that your with your sisters again

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<3 Kerri xx (YOUR GIRL)